Sunday, October 21, 2012
I Survived
As we left the house I looked back and realized that in that empty hallow vessel there were so many extreme events that had change my life. I had lost so much more than I had gained while living there. It has been the only house I’ve ever known, rightfully so, it holds the most memories. The small apartments I’ve lived in cannot hold as much as that house has held.
It was much too quiet for me to think about everything. The silence was louder in my brain-hemorrhaging the veins-I wanted to punch the walls and break the window (again). Instead I simply whispered “Good-bye” and shut the door softer than I thought possible.
One would think that child abuse is so common because it barely has an effect on anyone when you say the term. To me, it’s more than that. It’s silent nights of monsters and dark days of “acting.” There was so much I could have done to stop it and the guilt lives deepest in my soul. The abuse to me was more than just physical. It was mental. It was verbal. It was--more. I grew withdrawn at twelve years old and my mom tried to send me to my aunt’s house to “get fixed.”
“I don’t know what’s wrong with her. She’s always so depressed and has nothing to say. She spends too much time in her room.” My mom was never the one to see what was under her nose the whole time. I can’t blame her though. She was too drunk to remember anything and absent most of the time.
Thinking back on it, there was no guarantee that I would have survived everything that happened to me. Miscarriages, abuse, homelessness, court dates. I did though. I survived. I’m not sure why, but I survived.
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This story, (narrative) is very deep. Great use or words and description, I could picture it all in my head. just about went to the same deal, living with parents who were never around and always abusing drugs and alcohol. you had great use of capitalization and rightful punctuations. Would like to hear more about the miscarriages and abuse, etc. Seems like something I can relate to.
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ReplyDeleteI enjoyed a lot reading your story. I have never being part of child abused, but I can imagine how hard is it to be missed treated, and not have a person to relay on. you did a good job on telling your story, but you had small spelling, and punctuation errors. Other than that you did a great job.
ReplyDeleteThis was very touching. Reading your story was really good I felt how your pain was through out reading it. I've never been abuse but by reading your story made feel like you have to be a strong person to get through something like this. Great story it was a good skilled and descriptive story.
ReplyDeleteThis was a really good story to read and I got into the story. I've never really been around child abuse. I know that abuse is not good. it can hurt people and change their life forever and when they get abused they think thats the only way to get they point across. so thats what they do later in life.
ReplyDeletei have never had been in a childhood abuse i know that abuse someone like that isn't good for your life. and when you try to get out of it is hard for life and know that your life is going bad.
ReplyDeleteI have never seen no read anything that had this much detail about an abused childhood. Everyone deserves better but the detail about how you felt brought a sorrowful type of feeling.
ReplyDeleteI think this story is so deeply personal. I did enjoy your story and it actually really want to give you a big hug. I know times are hard and with this situation so many children and teenagers are actually going through any kind of abuse. You used really good description to your story and maybe a little bit of small punctuation errors. Other than that I really enjoy this story and would actually like to hear more of your life style and how you have grown from this.
ReplyDeleteHe/She was very brave to tell her story. it was very good i enjoyed reading this, it's something no one would want to really talk about. i would also like to read more about the miscarriages and abuses seems like it would be a great story if you would've talked more about it. i also like the beginning of it when you explained the pain about breaking the window again.
ReplyDeleteI think that you had a really heart felt and deep thought story. It was well put together. I though that it could have been a little more detail including in it. I think that you should have had a little more longer. I do think that you had a rough life and hope that it gets better for you. I did like it though there were just minor things wrong. Great narrative though.
ReplyDeleteI think it's awesome that someone can be this open about their personal life, after reading this i want to know more, but i wouldn't expect more only because it's so personal. It describes how your mother was, and how you felt like she was kind of crazy for thinking you needed to get "fixed" when she was the drunk that needed help. The description of the story is fantastic you seemed deeply in your thoughts and feelings about how shocked you are or were that you survived.
ReplyDeleteThis story is really good and something that i can relate too. I also basically grew up with out my parents. My mom was always working and my father left my mom since he was so into drugs. For people who went through child abuse such a young age is really strong about it. Well I hope that you have a bright future.
ReplyDeleteI believe that this is a great story because i can relate to being abused like hit but thats done with something that wasnt good something nobody ever liked or will like, it gets to you and it breaks people down but theres a limit where there has to be an end to it. but great capitalization
ReplyDeleteThis story can go real deep. Your story as it is now is a great narrative to begin with. You did have some punctuation errors that could be fixed other then that it's a good story. I know that it took you a lot of braveness to write about your story. I know where your coming from and your story is going on a good track. I would love to read more about this, I'm familiar with this kind of stuff and it would be great to see or read more on how others survive and deal with these kind of things in life. Put some more detail in it and your story will be even better!
ReplyDeletei can somewhat relate to this, even though i never had to dealt with psychical abuse but i had word's from my own house hold when using words to hurt one another was a tool to get in your head. But you know what i never put my self down over self-esteem i made sure that i can make a difference and a better life of my self that theres always a way to make a change in life that you should take different paths even if you make mistakes change your mind again... you just might never know what life decisions might take you even if it means leaving your family, no ones life is perfect that was the big step I took and it took a'lot of courage for me to do this and you know what i feel like this is what I needed to do... This story is really good with fantastic description and there was some punctuation errors, over all it was a good story.
ReplyDeleteI like the this story but i don't like the fact you where abused.i feel bad when i read things like this.it makes me want to take action my self about this story.to tell you the truth i didn't see no errors.i can't really fix errors because i make errors myself.
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